Abysmal Torment

Relapse Into Sickness

Abysmal Torment


Once within the chaotic maze I'm lost forlorn 
Crushed in dejection by a whole host of possibilities 
I followed whispers suffocating in the gloom 
Gurgling like blood through a slit throat 
I followed in silence amid twisting halls 
Only just iridescent of fading specks of light 
Consumed and put out by tears that blood has shed 
All around losing substance giving way to numbness 
Where in others what springs is fear of the unknown 
In essence irrational but still hard to subjugate 
Bleak prospect of finding any sense at all 
Betrayed from the start by my very nature 
Fruit of centuries of regenerating in suppression 
Absurd inhibitions shackled higher insurrection 
Incoherent ideas sculpted to spread dismay and guilt 
For crimes that aren't, in my core I seek to ravish 
Lapsing in lower state while drifting in a sea of languor 
Demise is all I can perceive among this horde 
Vacillating like tired birds amid ferocious hail 
Sipping untold mystery diseased born of fear 
Raping dispoiling whatever pure still stands 
Adulterated by slithering concealed snakes 
Sinuously in motion allure to feeble emotion 
Envenomed dragged to the brink of resignation 
Life allure to the hopeless herd grazing in envenomed fields 
Lost in a path littered by virtuous truths of doubt 
Bound by gregarious existence based upon perversion 
Castrated ideals set my inside ablaze 
Upon facing the golden age of filth 
Pervaded with every kind of shit 
Where subhuman mongoloid scum 
Thrive engaging in boundaries perversion 
Orgiastic culture of death fruit of our own making 
Upon abject liars I vomit this visceral gush of aversion 
Sought for domination I'm none's to bleed 
Never shall I feed greed with pain and fear 
Cut me open pull me inside out but I shall never bleed 
All around me weather before hateful eyes 
Bonds of affection are no more than frail twigs 
Bound to be shattered in the midst of violent gales 
Gales of hate where's there's no life 
Veins vigorously pumping blood infused in abhorrence 
While malevolence brews within my soulless heart 
Intrinsic hatred voraciously eating me out 
Lost and destined to dwell were no life dwells 
Dead inside now choking on my own lies 
Death becomes the only concrete reality