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Now I've had OCD
I mean officially
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For 4 months at least
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And it's a shit disease
And my medicine
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Is still not helping me
F
I still cannot eat
I still cannot sleep
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I still cannot be
F
I always feel on edge
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I always feel death creeping up my sleeves
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And I've probably had this illness for more than 10 years
But let's not think about that
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And everything I ever do triggers me to the point of panic
Let's not think about that
F
Do you know how scary it is
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To be afraid of things you cannot ever change?
Or do you not think about that
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Do you know how fucked up it is to not know what's real?
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Or do you not think like that
F
I still cannot feel
If my heart is skipping beats
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If that's even true
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Like should I see a doctor or see my therapist?
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Is anything real?
F
The feelings I can get
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From shit inside my head is completely off the hook
F
I hate this shitty life
I hate this shitty time
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I hate my OCD
F
And this illness is chronic
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And will probably haunt me for the rest of my life
Let's not think about that
F
And this illness is violent and makes me think I'm violent
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Shit, but people get uncomfortable if I ever mention that
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It is not just cleaning
Or that I like it tidy
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It is not a hobby
Or something exciting
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This illness is as horrible as horrifying gets
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Feeling like a prisoner in your own fucking head
F
Never really understanding
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What is me?
What is sickness?
F
So I just give up and give in
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And accept that nothing ever changes
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